i feel like i need scissors

this pain deep down makes me want no more

i stutter things that i cannot take

my mind is racing every thought does hurt

i feel like i need scissors

to put an end to the vessels that sting my heart

i feel like i could use a pain killer

to cease the wound i cannot close

my heart is throbbing and my head is bursting

tears do not seem to surcease from my skin

whatever runs my thoughts runs my veins

this morning this day i will never pass safely

i feel like i need scissors

to put an end to the vessels that sting

my heart i feel like i could use

a pain killer to cease what i cannot close

hands are shaking eyes are glimpsing

powder cannot make thee dry my cosy

i do not feel like bleeding but what matters

a fact i am not able to let it end

i feel like i need scissors

to put an end to stinging vessels my heart

feels like i could use a killer

to cease a life i cannot close

withdrawing and tearing now send me to heaven

and heal my broken wings i need to fly

i want to come to a world i could be one

one soul one love a heart that is jumping

freedom in my tears i find all but cessation

my sleep may numb the pain i cannot take

these body parts that crawled into me

and held me from my happiness

i need scissors now i need scissor blades a ceaser

© 5.5.2010 cornelia s.

i was waking and feeling nothing while i could not control what should be something nice - i hate this pills that make me feel like bursting into tears - that make me cry that make me broken that steal days and give nothing but sleep - dear lord i am a sinner, a jealous girl the bad sort i protest - but i cannot think of nothing else - i shiver i feel no throbbing my mind is closing off from the world - leave me alone leave my tears my mourns bursting out of my soul ... bursting out of my soul

thou do not have to worry ... i am fine ... 



Epica - Tides Of Time TT____TT